You Gotta Have A Dream

The past year has seen many changes in my life, as I am sure it has in yours.  I recently completed a months long endeavor to explore and apply to graduate school, specifically the study of law.  As part of the application, I was required to write a personal statement of my choosing with minor parameters. I thought I would share that piece with you as I move forward in this adventure.

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You gotta have a dream to make a dream come true.

Throughout my life my father has expressed these words that have resonated in my heart as a mission statement for success, and I have always been encouraged to believe in myself and explore the world around me. With such a liberating mandate, I developed my imagination and sought the passion and inspiration that would surely lead to personal contentment. But as a confident and dedicated adult, I have discovered that dreams do change and that the practical pursuit of a desire requires balancing an idealistic vision with a vigilant evaluation of one’s personal state of being.

Looking around the sterile environment of an audition center, situated in the back of an industrial building off of Sunset Boulevard, I made such an evaluation and had a revelation:

This was not my dream.

Seven years earlier I had moved from the Denver-metro area and was currently living in Los Angeles, pursuing various acting opportunities, and headed in the wrong direction. Most of the work I was involved with centered around advertising and commercials which, in terms of personal fulfillment, can leave the dreamer wanting. The craft of acting was dear to my heart yet sincere happiness still eluded me.

One audition found me sitting in a barren room filled with dozens of other men, all similarly dressed with corresponding physical attributes. In my hand was my audition slip, complete with personalized barcode and corresponding identification number. I had my two-line phrase memorized and was trying not to self-consciously mumble it to myself as many of my colleagues had taken to doing.

In that moment, reflections on my time in LA and the dream that I was pursuing became clear. The disconcertion that I felt stemmed from the fact that my path and the opportunities before me no longer reflected the dream that I had once held. The truth is that in order to live in the pursuit of a dream, practical considerations must be made where fanciful daydreaming once took place. My life and my happiness were at stake. So, as I had done seven years earlier, I took charge of my life and began the pursuit of my happiness once again.

After returning to Colorado, I put my efforts into exploring the field of law and began working with an attorney through the legal department at a Denver think tank. Here I experienced first-hand the excitement, frustration and fulfillment that accompanies the work of an attorney. I was able to assist with Constitutional research and professional presentations on historical and legal matters that only served to reignite my inspiration for the legal profession. As I had found studying the law and criminology while earning an undergraduate degree, I have a conscience and a passion for justice, seeking truth in all matters.

Providence and life experience have equipped me with the resources and support to succeed in law school. There, I will learn to understand and apply the legal profession while completing my studies in order to work as an attorney in the state of Colorado.

This is my dream.

As I now evaluate the present condition of my life, I am proud and humble to possess a certain peace of mind that comes in knowing that I am the type of person who lives to live a dream. I am proud of the accomplishments that faith and works have blessed me with in my life. With a firm belief in God and my own abilities, I am now endeavoring to once again satisfy the stubborn dreamer that dwells within me.

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Straight Outta GQ

ben-carson-donkey-hotey11-450x321Two sides are engaged in a fierce ideological struggle to win over the hearts and minds of the citizens of the United States in order that the principles composing those ideologies might be put into effective action by a legitimate governing body.

How can this task be accomplished?  How to persuade, compel or simply overpower the opposition in order to win elected office and govern accordingly?

Here are two recent examples highlighting the opposing perspectives and differing approaches between the so called left and right on just one particular issue.  These are the modern methods of these two sides:

Ben Carson speaking publicly on responding to a mass shooter:  “Not only would I probably not cooperate with him, I would not just stand there and let him shoot me. I would say, ‘Hey, guys, everybody attack him. He may shoot me, but he can’t get us all.’

The article: Fuck Ben Carson

And his response: We should pray for them.

If I am being honest, I have made extensive use of the ‘F’ word on many an occasion and do not shirk from its usage as a variable part of speech.  However, call me old fashioned, but I still value honor between professional opponents, at least as it extends to the public realm.  Look no further to find evidence of the deterioration of not only the integrity of the media as a societal institution, but the complacency of detractors to look no further for the truth.  For if GQ says it, it must be true.

The article went on to sing further the praises of the Republican contender, “You know, the only thing more alarming than Donald Trump leading the Republican presidential field is the fact that Ben Carson is the guy right behind him. While establishment puds like Jeb! Bush and Marco Rubio can’t decide if they want to beat Trump or emulate him, the Good Doctor made it clear this week that he is not only willing to replicate Trump’s signature brand of hot-garbage-spewing, but he’ll say even DUMBER shit.”

This tripe bears witness to the incessant acrimony that plagues the leftist, progressive mentality. It never finds alleviation, and no peace of mind can assuage the perpetual hatred that these folks possess in their hearts.  There is no wise commentary, no enlightening aphorism meant to elevate the conversation and actually make progress.  There is simply name-calling, ad hominem attacks and an entirely dismissive attitude of a legitimate point-of-view.

Furthermore, the tendency of the lefty mentality is to impose this disposition onto society-at-large, seeking to further restrict onto those who agree with Dr. Carson.  Despite the attempts that have been imposed however, in the form of outright gun bans in urban areas and the adoption of gun-free zones, gun violence still mysteriously occurs where gun violence is not allowed.

Some folks don’t like guns, don’t want guns and would rather die before picking up a gun to hurt another living thing, even in self defense.  That is a perfectly acceptable position and I can support such conscientious objectors.  However, just as they have a right not to fight back, to peaceably submit in a movie theater or college classroom, the rest of us have a right not to be made dead by a tragic, sickened individual.

This really is the primal, prehistoric, primitive defense mechanism that living beings have always possessed as a means of survival:

1. Recognize threat

2. Respond to threat using fight or flight

3. If selecting flight, stretch legs

4. If selecting fight, get weapon

5. Use legs or weapon depending on previous decision, see step 2 – fight or flight

As humanity has progressed, the weaponry has progressed too.  Instead of clubs and board-with-nail, we have Sig Sauer and Glock to protect and defend. (not to mention entertain future fossil hunters)  Admittedly, there is a case to be made against personalized nuclear devices and a reasonable debate can be had as to where that line is but the current 12 v. 17 mag capacity BS is missing the shark because, once again, for the cheap seats, criminals do not obey the law.

I have my personal grudges with the positions taken on some issues by Ben Carson but on this one we agree.  And when the opposition has resorted to vulgarity and playground strategery, I think that’s game.

Mic drop.

Boom!