The past year has seen many changes in my life, as I am sure it has in yours. I recently completed a months long endeavor to explore and apply to graduate school, specifically the study of law. As part of the application, I was required to write a personal statement of my choosing with minor parameters. I thought I would share that piece with you as I move forward in this adventure.
You gotta have a dream to make a dream come true.
Throughout my life my father has expressed these words that have resonated in my heart as a mission statement for success, and I have always been encouraged to believe in myself and explore the world around me. With such a liberating mandate, I developed my imagination and sought the passion and inspiration that would surely lead to personal contentment. But as a confident and dedicated adult, I have discovered that dreams do change and that the practical pursuit of a desire requires balancing an idealistic vision with a vigilant evaluation of one’s personal state of being.
Looking around the sterile environment of an audition center, situated in the back of an industrial building off of Sunset Boulevard, I made such an evaluation and had a revelation:
This was not my dream.
Seven years earlier I had moved from the Denver-metro area and was currently living in Los Angeles, pursuing various acting opportunities, and headed in the wrong direction. Most of the work I was involved with centered around advertising and commercials which, in terms of personal fulfillment, can leave the dreamer wanting. The craft of acting was dear to my heart yet sincere happiness still eluded me.
One audition found me sitting in a barren room filled with dozens of other men, all similarly dressed with corresponding physical attributes. In my hand was my audition slip, complete with personalized barcode and corresponding identification number. I had my two-line phrase memorized and was trying not to self-consciously mumble it to myself as many of my colleagues had taken to doing.
In that moment, reflections on my time in LA and the dream that I was pursuing became clear. The disconcertion that I felt stemmed from the fact that my path and the opportunities before me no longer reflected the dream that I had once held. The truth is that in order to live in the pursuit of a dream, practical considerations must be made where fanciful daydreaming once took place. My life and my happiness were at stake. So, as I had done seven years earlier, I took charge of my life and began the pursuit of my happiness once again.
After returning to Colorado, I put my efforts into exploring the field of law and began working with an attorney through the legal department at a Denver think tank. Here I experienced first-hand the excitement, frustration and fulfillment that accompanies the work of an attorney. I was able to assist with Constitutional research and professional presentations on historical and legal matters that only served to reignite my inspiration for the legal profession. As I had found studying the law and criminology while earning an undergraduate degree, I have a conscience and a passion for justice, seeking truth in all matters.
Providence and life experience have equipped me with the resources and support to succeed in law school. There, I will learn to understand and apply the legal profession while completing my studies in order to work as an attorney in the state of Colorado.
This is my dream.
As I now evaluate the present condition of my life, I am proud and humble to possess a certain peace of mind that comes in knowing that I am the type of person who lives to live a dream. I am proud of the accomplishments that faith and works have blessed me with in my life. With a firm belief in God and my own abilities, I am now endeavoring to once again satisfy the stubborn dreamer that dwells within me.