A Viking Funeral (Ode to Blair Walsh)

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Blair Walsh is presently the kicker for the Minnesota Vikings football team.  He recently missed a 27-yard field goal at the end of a playoff game.  The Vikings lost to the Seattle Seahawks 10-9.  Walsh had previously kicked field goals for every one of the Vikings nine points.

A light is lit

A smile revealed

The hope for a future still waiting concealed

Prayers and tears

Triumphs and defeats

Through them all kept going, kept moving my feets

As a part of a team

I have a job to do

And the others have jobs that they have to do too

Win or lose

Pain and gain

We bleed

We lead

Time and time again

And again and again

Glory and fame

Fighting the battles, securing our names

The work has been done

The journey well tread

The moment has come, the time it is set

Chance and luck

Fortune and fate

Best laid plans and intentions…

You step right up and do what you can

Your job, your best

But no matter the plan…

The hopes of a town

The goals of a team

Hearts broken, eyes watered

The death of a dream

In that dark time

The nothing comes out

To devour the hope, leaving hurt throughout

I could have done more

I should have played less

Fought harder, faithed stronger

Lived better, worked longer

Then things would be perfect

The dream would be true

Life would be fair

For both me and you

Cause things, they ain’t perfect

But dreams do still come true

Sometimes they just look funny

Like a cat wearing shoes

So never forget the work you have done

The person you are

An important someone

Deserving of love

Of peace

Happiness

You are that human

Who has lived through it all

Worked hard, had fun

Seen hardships, stood tall

Some things go right

Some things go wrong

But in every game

Always walk strong

Do the absolute best job you know you can do

And live the life you want you to do too

Succeed or fail

Light or dark

The nothing can’t kill

A smile in the heart

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I also encourage your to read this from Theodore Roosevelt on the difference between those who do…

The Man in the Arena

 It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.

You Gotta Have A Dream

The past year has seen many changes in my life, as I am sure it has in yours.  I recently completed a months long endeavor to explore and apply to graduate school, specifically the study of law.  As part of the application, I was required to write a personal statement of my choosing with minor parameters. I thought I would share that piece with you as I move forward in this adventure.

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You gotta have a dream to make a dream come true.

Throughout my life my father has expressed these words that have resonated in my heart as a mission statement for success, and I have always been encouraged to believe in myself and explore the world around me. With such a liberating mandate, I developed my imagination and sought the passion and inspiration that would surely lead to personal contentment. But as a confident and dedicated adult, I have discovered that dreams do change and that the practical pursuit of a desire requires balancing an idealistic vision with a vigilant evaluation of one’s personal state of being.

Looking around the sterile environment of an audition center, situated in the back of an industrial building off of Sunset Boulevard, I made such an evaluation and had a revelation:

This was not my dream.

Seven years earlier I had moved from the Denver-metro area and was currently living in Los Angeles, pursuing various acting opportunities, and headed in the wrong direction. Most of the work I was involved with centered around advertising and commercials which, in terms of personal fulfillment, can leave the dreamer wanting. The craft of acting was dear to my heart yet sincere happiness still eluded me.

One audition found me sitting in a barren room filled with dozens of other men, all similarly dressed with corresponding physical attributes. In my hand was my audition slip, complete with personalized barcode and corresponding identification number. I had my two-line phrase memorized and was trying not to self-consciously mumble it to myself as many of my colleagues had taken to doing.

In that moment, reflections on my time in LA and the dream that I was pursuing became clear. The disconcertion that I felt stemmed from the fact that my path and the opportunities before me no longer reflected the dream that I had once held. The truth is that in order to live in the pursuit of a dream, practical considerations must be made where fanciful daydreaming once took place. My life and my happiness were at stake. So, as I had done seven years earlier, I took charge of my life and began the pursuit of my happiness once again.

After returning to Colorado, I put my efforts into exploring the field of law and began working with an attorney through the legal department at a Denver think tank. Here I experienced first-hand the excitement, frustration and fulfillment that accompanies the work of an attorney. I was able to assist with Constitutional research and professional presentations on historical and legal matters that only served to reignite my inspiration for the legal profession. As I had found studying the law and criminology while earning an undergraduate degree, I have a conscience and a passion for justice, seeking truth in all matters.

Providence and life experience have equipped me with the resources and support to succeed in law school. There, I will learn to understand and apply the legal profession while completing my studies in order to work as an attorney in the state of Colorado.

This is my dream.

As I now evaluate the present condition of my life, I am proud and humble to possess a certain peace of mind that comes in knowing that I am the type of person who lives to live a dream. I am proud of the accomplishments that faith and works have blessed me with in my life. With a firm belief in God and my own abilities, I am now endeavoring to once again satisfy the stubborn dreamer that dwells within me.